Back when I was in weight loss mode, I used to think all those ladies at Weight Watchers who complained about how they just didn’t have time to make sure they were eating right just weren’t trying hard enough. I mean, how hard is it to take an hour or two on Sunday to make a plan and grocery shop, and think for 5 minutes each night about what you’ll eat the next day? Not hard at all, in fact, but I think I’m starting to understand their point.
See, when I was in weight loss mode, I was single and had ample time to myself. My job wasn’t particularly strenuous, and my extracurricular activities were largely confined within school (and by extension, work) hours. I was able to take time to strategize, plan, research, exercise, etc. Factor in the constant positive reinforcement I was receiving, and, well, you’ve got a winning combination.
Now, though, work is kicking me in the pants and leaving me so exhausted that all I want to do is collapse on the couch at home and order a pizza. Sure, I’ve only given into this particular impulse once or twice, I think, but my mind frequently goes there. In addition, I’m not thinking just of myself, but also of my Aussie — where I’m sleeping that night, the time he gets off work, and the other fun things we have planned all play a role in what I eat for dinner and whether or not (mostly not) I exercise. Lastly, non-work activities like travel, parties, hanging out with friends, and impending choir rehearsals all reappoint much of the time I used to spend on planning and exercising. Even the time between meals where I used to think about what to eat next is now eaten up by something else.
In essence, I feel like I’m now eating to live rather than living to eat, and I don’t like it one bit! And as much as I hate exercise, I miss the feeling of accomplishment I got from doing it — and the non-flabby muscles, too!
So, this leaves me in a conundrum. I like my extracurriculars, I love being with my Aussie, and while I hate feeling like I’ve been hit by a mac truck after work, it’s preferable to being bored out of my mind. That means it’s time to make a plan… and since there isn’t more time to be a had, I have to instead restructure my priorities:
Priority #1: Thinking about what I’ll eat AHEAD OF TIME. This used to be a habit, so I know I can do it. This includes planning dinners for the week, spending 5 minutes a night to plan out what I’ll eat the next day, etc. I’m a planner by nature, so this isn’t too much of a chore.
Priority #2: Exercising on a regular basis. Since I’m back on “school year” schedule now, I can easily appoint Tuesday and one weekend day for exercise, at a bare minimum. I am even *GASP* going to explore going the university’s gym. Not super convenient, but a damn good value!
So, ladies at Weight Watchers with husbands and families and vast more amounts of responsibilities that I have, I apologize for thinking you lazy. I was naive and puffed up by my own rapid success. I now get what you mean — sometimes, you’re just too tired to think about it, and grabbing a treat out of the vending machine is easiest and comes down to a matter of survival, not being too lazy to think of anything else! But hopefully, instead of dwelling on that, we all can figure out a way to put ourselves first and make it happen.
Because, well, it HAS to happen. I can’t afford to buy bigger pants for Fall! 😉